Jun 5, 2010

Goodbye To A Friend


I feel a little guilty for posting this because so many people are going through difficult times, but we had to put our 16 year old Cocker Spaniel down on Friday. This is the third one, and it never gets any easier. Though our other two cockers were sick with terminal illnesses this one, who was probably the least healthy of the three, was more or less just OLD and feeling the effects of old age. He had a myriad of health problems through the years which could be treated but not cured and added to that he had lost his hearing and eyesight and had already fallen into the pool several times.

Looking back, I realize that he hadn't really felt good for a couple of years and I waver between feeling guilty for waiting too long and guilty for doing it too soon. In the end, my husband and I both knew it was time and had known it was coming for awhile, but you are never quite prepared for the end.

I honestly don't know how people who lose children can survive after such a loss because my heart is broken in a million pieces right now over a dog, and I feel so damned guilty about that; but I don't know how to make it stop.

8 Passengers in the Car:

Brian Miller said...

aw...i am so sorry for you loss...pets are children...part of our family...dont feel guilty...take your time to mourn and remember the find memories...

Steve Gravano said...

Pets are part of the family, sorry for your loss.

Bossy Betty said...

Your heartbreak is very real and nothing to discount. I am so sorry for your loss.

Magpie said...

What others may or may not be going through right now doesn't diminish your loss. He was a big part of your family for a long time. He will be missed. You have a right to your sorrow...no guilt allowed. Love you!!
This evening I caught myself looking for him and thinking I'd trip over him in the bathroom. :)

Kathy said...

Never feel guilty about something that loved you, breathed the same air as you did, remained loyal to you throughout their life. I have tears in my eyes right now, three years after having lost two little brothers than I had had for 11 years. So sad but the memories are there forever.

Cousin Kathy said...

Oh, you shouldn't even be concerning yourself with guilt! No one's emotions that go with loss trump anyone else's...and Willie was really more than a dog. He was just another cousin. He knew it, I knew it, we all knew it. You gave him such a fabulous life. He probably would not have gotten to experience any of it without you and Bill. May he rest in peace! And may YOU get peace. I love you. I know I'm not a dog...and no comments here, please, but I wouldn't mind having my back scratched and being fed pizza bones. :)

Cathi said...

Willie was your baby, your family...your grief is very real. I am so sorry for your loss...I love you lots and hope to see you and Bill sometime soon! xxoo :)

Jingle said...

sorry for the loss of pets.

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