Jun 21, 2010

Home

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“Every day is a journey, and the journey itself is home.”~ Matsuo Basho

Last night I arrived back "home" after spending three weeks at "home" with my Mom while she recovered from hip surgery. I think the fact that I came home after spending three weeks at home means something, but it's buried too far inside my head and I haven't a scalpel long enough to slice into it and pull it out. I enjoyed this special time of bonding with my Mom - a sort of bizarre S&M ritual in which I was the master and she the slave for a change. EAT YOUR VEGETABLES, MOM! (The rest of you can get your minds out of the gutter.)

This trip back home was a disconnect trip for me because I finally realized that the place where I had grown up had become the place where I was grown up. It was where all the adults in town - the aldermen, the store owners, the deacons at church - were my high school classmates. Some of them surprised me with the lives they had made, others disappointed. We were are all living in a world that never dared cross the threshold of our minds while we were busy attending high school football games and proms.

So now I am home, but I am not Home; or maybe I am Home but not home. Perhaps I was There but now I'm Here. Maybe I never left either place.

7 Passengers in the Car:

Brian Miller said...

each place holds a place in your heart...no reaon to seperate them by more than the miles. welcome home.

Bossy Betty said...

Glad you are back. I know just what you are talking about when you talking about going back home. I'll be headed back to the town where I grew up soon. Always a reminder of how much I've changed.

Cathi said...

It's always nice to go home and come back home! Glad you're back! xxoo :)

Relyn said...

That's my guess... you never left either place. And, welcome back home - to this home, I mean.

Kathy said...

Enjoyed your perspective on home and home. I think most of us who have left home and made another home have those feelings. Home is where the heart is and it can be in two different places at the same time.

Magpie said...

You are home from your home...welcome home. Glad you're here.

GraceGal said...

You know what is really scary? I totally undestood that :) And I understand that disconnect. Takes a while to find your bearings and they may have moved a bit.